feeling very strange these days. think my hormones or something might be out of whack. am full of dread over completely ridiculous things and paranoid for no reason. keep thinking that if i had a job i would feel better. there's this beautiful place, La Subida, an agrotourismo hotel, with two restaurants and horses and stuff. im going to go over there and ask for something. i would love to work there, i'd learn so much, and its beautiful. in the meantime, today i made flyers for babysitting and english tutoring. am going to the cities around cormons to post them. the man at the copy\print shop was so nice! he asked if he could keep one of the flyers for his window, and said that english conversation, and learning other languages, was so important, and that he wished me so much luck. i realised after i had copied 20 of the babysitting signs that i had misspelled the word "ragazza" (girl). the man helped me white out all of the mistakes and fix it. felt stupid, but it made me smile to have his help. then it was weird. went home and just like, lost it, over the fact that i misspelled that word. like, i am so stupid and cant even spell girl and what the hell kind of future do i have here if i cant even make a stupid flyer for babysitting right and what am i doing with my life, etc. was conscious the whole time that this made no sense, but i just felt weak and so sad. decided to take a break and go on a hike and regroup. the exercise helped, and the fall weather, and i feel better now. ill blog tomorrow, asap, so much fun stuff to write about!